because no one's going to read this

All right, I've got no idea where I'm going, and I've got no idea whether I actually know what I'm doing. I know where I'm trying to go, and I am doing what I know to do to get there, but there's a point when I wonder what else I should be doing, what else I'm even able to do that I'm not doing now. Some things are promising, some things are absurd, but mostly the things I'm doing provide no significant feedback, no insight into what I should be doing differently, if anything.

I may well be doing everything right; I may well be doing what I need to do to get where I need to go. I may well not be. It's that I don't know, and I don't know how to know. It's that possibly I will only know once I've gotten there, if I happen to soon; it's that possibly I will know something more if I've not gotten there in a bit, and I will try to learn everything I can in the process.

However much sense this makes or doesn't, I need to put into words the tangled contrasts that exist. I need to try to know what I know now, what I think I need to learn, whether I need to change what I'm doing. Thus far it seems I'm doing at least something right, and possibly I'm doing everything right--I'd love it if that were the case and I'm hopeful that it is. I will try to pay as much attention as possible for signals that something is right or wrong along the way.

Sometimes it's impossible to know where you stand relative to others, relative to situations. Sometimes it's necessary to add some faith in the unknown to the mix, along with confidence and continuous open, honest self-analysis.

That is all.

Moving?

Mr. McCain,

In the debate you stated that "if a single payer system sounds good to you, go to Canada or England."

Well, a single payer system sounds great to me and to my girlfriend, and we would love to move to either Canada or England. However, it is difficult to simply move there and become a citizen. We would love for you to assist our move, as we are ready to leave the country immediately.

Please call me at your earliest convenience, as we are one hundred percent serious about our desire for single payer health insurance and our desire to relocate to either of these countries. Please help us to get expedited citizenship in either of these countries. Again, we are ready to leave immediately. My phone number is xxx-xxx-xxxx or xxx-xxx-xxxx during the day (unlike you, I do not have $100 million in my household, so I work). Thank you, and I hope to hear from you soon.